I don't know what it's worth, but I can tell you that the LAST word I would associate with you is 'hateful'. Patient and graceful are the first two words that spring to mind, actually.

I rage because I always get scheduled to work when my favorite TV show, when I know I should be only grateful that I have work. But I think we all have little selfish twinges like that, and it doesn't reflect badly on your character in general <3