I'm a flaming idiot

5th time I've reworked the choreography and I'm scared to death now I won't be able to improv enough to fake it if I forget what I'm doing. I can't do the whole song (wtf possessed me? it's 3:44!) The bra is staying on. My pasties turned out to be crap and the scars are too obvious. God help me, I need more time. I would have done this sooner but I hardly knew I was going on stage until a week ago.

Stupid, stupid, stupid me!