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Jan. 16th, 2011 11:14 amIt still hurts this morning, though not as much as it did. I'm dreading the funeral. If it's open casket, I'm not sure I'll be able to stand it.
I'm doing most of my grieving by sleeping. It feels like a fitting memorial. All that boy seemed to do was sleep and game. When I can write, I'm going to write a few things for him. I have to keep on with my projects, of which there are now three (Sorry, Chris, I'm not writing V:tM shite for you. Suck it up and find another writer for that flavor of heartache). "13th Floor" is going to have Blackrose expies (whether Chris LIKES how I do it or not). "Lunacy" will have his character, Connor, as planned and discussed with him, and Chris has convinced me to leave Sparks in and he'll recast him, though I don't think it will be the same, as well as Archer. Torchwood: Richmond and the Foxhole Alliance will always have Crosbie and DJ/Sinclair/Richard/all the rest.
And I'm saving up for his MiniMe. 900 bucks, but I can do it.
It's not going to be the same, but it's the best I'm going to get.
I'm doing most of my grieving by sleeping. It feels like a fitting memorial. All that boy seemed to do was sleep and game. When I can write, I'm going to write a few things for him. I have to keep on with my projects, of which there are now three (Sorry, Chris, I'm not writing V:tM shite for you. Suck it up and find another writer for that flavor of heartache). "13th Floor" is going to have Blackrose expies (whether Chris LIKES how I do it or not). "Lunacy" will have his character, Connor, as planned and discussed with him, and Chris has convinced me to leave Sparks in and he'll recast him, though I don't think it will be the same, as well as Archer. Torchwood: Richmond and the Foxhole Alliance will always have Crosbie and DJ/Sinclair/Richard/all the rest.
And I'm saving up for his MiniMe. 900 bucks, but I can do it.
It's not going to be the same, but it's the best I'm going to get.
